pieces of me...

We have known each other for ages. you know i always stand by you at your worst. How could you say those things to me?


Does time really change us or are we changing with time?


do you really want me to get out of your life because of this?
do you really mean it?


*sigh*
i hope you were just drunk.

Cinta Ini Membunuhku.
(D'Masiv)

kau membuat ku berantakan
kau membuat ku tak karuan
kau membuat ku tak berdaya
kau menolakku, acuhkan diriku

bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

reff:
kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
lelah hati ini, meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku

evenworstxxx: BUZZ!



(30 minutes later)



riezt_world: uh. *smirk*

riezt_world: sorry, just woke up

evenworstxxx: oo sleepyhead!

riezt_world: *pout* whatever *yawn*

evenworstxxx: seriously

evenworstxxx: we likely will meet each other again this year.

riezt_world: good... *yawn*

riezt_world: what's up...

evenworstxxx: *LOL*

riezt_world: <<<<< i'm still sleepy you know...  =_=

evenworstxxx: be there or i'm gonna rape you hardly

riezt_world: oo yeah... funny. =_=

evenworstxxx: i mean be here

riezt_world: huh?

riezt_world: wait... "here"?

evenworstxxx: uh hummm

riezt_world: ....

riezt_world: shuddup. wtf.

evenworstxxx: don't forget to sing me a song on that day.

riezt_world: ??

riezt_world: ....................

riezt_world: 0__o ohhh fuggggggggggggggggggggg

evenworstxxx: *LOL*

riezt_world: fuggggggggggggggggggggg

evenworstxxx: wish me luck, mate

riezt_world: fuggggggggggggggggggggg

evenworstxxx: sorry, i'm first in life...

riezt_world: fuggggggggggggggggggggg

evenworstxxx: *angel smile*

riezt_world: just tell me what the hell is going on!

evenworstxxx: i'm gonna get married

riezt_world: who.  0_o

evenworstxxx: me

riezt_world: fugg. i was right then....

evenworstxxx: : hehehe...

riezt_world: ....

riezt_world: who's the bride?

evenworstxxx: hmmph

riezt_world: spill it out

evenworstxxx: my old schoolmate

riezt_world: how could you never told me about her =(

evenworstxxx: we were on the same year back then in my highschool

evenworstxxx: you are the first one whom i told about this, stupid

riezt_world: oh....

riezt_world: ....

riezt_world: but, i mean... you two haven't chosen the marriage date, right?

evenworstxxx: i've chosen it.

evenworstxxx: heeeeee..... *smirk*

riezt_world: ??

riezt_world: gosh... and.... when?

riezt_world: wait... is she pregnant or something? *raise eyebrow*

evenworstxxx: no gawd damned!

evenworstxxx: guess the date, mate

riezt_world: no more riddle. just tell me. LOL.

riezt_world: uh crap. you're gonna leave me alone. =(

evenworstxxx: just guess it. i'll give you 2 chances.

evenworstxxx: come on

evenworstxxx: guess my marriage month....

riezt_world: uh...

riezt_world: *shrug* uh, "my month", august? LOL.

riezt_world: just kidding.

evenworstxxx: hmmm

evenworstxxx: you're right mate

evenworstxxx: =P

riezt_world: huh?? 0_o

evenworstxxx: now... guess THE SPECIFIC DATEEEEEEE...

riezt_world: LOL. i don't knooow... it can't be on my birthday, right. LOL. =P

evenworstxxx: *HUG*

evenworstxxx: hehehe

evenworstxxx: hehehehe

evenworstxxx: hehehehehe

riezt_world: what

evenworstxxx: hehehehehehe

riezt_world: WTH with that "hehehe" silly

evenworstxxx: hehehe. you don't mind i "borrow" your birthday, eh?

riezt_world: uh?

evenworstxxx: *HUG*

riezt_world: on agustus 12??

riezt_world: agustus 12??

evenworstxxx: uwwww... now u know i love u so much

evenworstxxx: =)

riezt_world: *gasp* it's... just... impossible...

evenworstxxx: be here, my mate...

riezt_world: omg. are you serious? *teary eyes*

evenworstxxx: =)

riezt_world: goshhh... i am crying now... T__T

evenworstxxx: sing me something beautiful on that day, will you?

evenworstxxx: something beautiful... just like us...

evenworstxxx: *HUG*

riezt_world: T________T gosh.........

evenworstxxx: *HUG*

evenworstxxx: ssshhhh... *rubs*

evenworstxxx: you're shameful... =)

evenworstxxx: don't cry... =)

riezt_world: *sobbing* whatever

riezt_world: u didn't joke around? *sobbing*

riezt_world: T_____T

riezt_world: ='(

evenworstxxx: mate, why...

riezt_world: nothing...

riezt_world: it's mixed inside... ='(

evenworstxxx: you don't like it?

riezt_world: no. it's not like that...

riezt_world: you know...

riezt_world: it's just... *sigh*

riezt_world: i'm gonna miss u... *cries*

evenworstxxx: *HUG*

evenworstxxx: mee too...

riezt_world: you'll leave me...

evenworstxxx: nooo...

evenworstxxx: its not im gonna be dead or something

riezt_world: lol... i cant see the keyboard clearly

evenworstxxx: i'll be around, mate...

riezt_world: i'm glad to see you're happy... you should have known that...

riezt_world: i really am

riezt_world: *HUG*

riezt_world: it's just... *sigh*

evenworstxxx: *HUG*

evenworstxxx: i know...

evenworstxxx: i know mate... =)

riezt_world: =(

evenworstxxx: =)

evenworstxxx: ........... =)

riezt_world: look how different our emoticon...

riezt_world: lol.... =(

evenworstxxx: ....

evenworstxxx: i'm tired, mate...

evenworstxxx: you know.... it's....

riezt_world: <<< silly

riezt_world: i know...

riezt_world: it's your time, De...

evenworstxxx: i'm not that young anymore to fall awake by myself...

riezt_world: i know... =)

riezt_world: just a bit shock ok..... but i'm fine =)

riezt_world: come gimme a hug... ^__^

evenworstxxx: ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((BIGGGGGGGGG HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG)))))))))))))))))))))))

riezt_world: ^__^

riezt_world: how's the preparation, De?

evenworstxxx: mate, it will be just a small party

riezt_world: who has chosen the date?

evenworstxxx: ME

riezt_world: *hug* i love you mate

riezt_world: =')

evenworstxxx: i know =)

evenworstxxx: i know =)

evenworstxxx: i know =)

evenworstxxx: and i know your eyes are teary now.....

riezt_world: that really touched me...

riezt_world: =')

evenworstxxx: =)

evenworstxxx: hmmm

evenworstxxx: let me tell you something... so you can laugh...

riezt_world: uh?

riezt_world: what is it?

evenworstxxx: well.... she's not pretty...

riezt_world: ??

riezt_world: do you still think pretty face is important?

evenworstxxx: but she's nice...

riezt_world: good.

evenworstxxx: and....

evenworstxxx: she's SUPEEEEEEEEERRRRRRR BLOODYYYYYYYY RICHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahahahahahaha

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahahaha

riezt_world: huhhhhh?? 0__o

riezt_world: LOOOOOL

riezt_world: ooo shit

evenworstxxx: hahahaha

riezt_world: u should buy me something expensive! 0__o

evenworstxxx: nooo it's not like what you're thinking!

riezt_world: LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahaahah

evenworstxxx: i'm not materialistiiiiiic!!

evenworstxxx: hahahahahaha

riezt_world: LOOOOL

evenworstxxx: it's just, she's rich by chance.

evenworstxxx: hahahahahaha

riezt_world: fugg ya faggot

riezt_world: you're kinda smart to choose a bride

riezt_world: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahahah

evenworstxxx: destiny is fair

riezt_world: stop laughing

evenworstxxx: after all this time gawd damned

evenworstxxx: hahahahahaa

riezt_world: you'll get jaw cramp

riezt_world: hahahahaha

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahahahahaha

riezt_world: oooooooooo fug

evenworstxxx: so i tell u now

riezt_world: what

evenworstxxx: go and meet god!

evenworstxxx: hahahahahaa

riezt_world: seriously, i'm going to collect the debts. LOOOOOOOOOOL

riezt_world: hahahahhahahahhahahhaa includes the interests.

evenworstxxx: what loan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

evenworstxxx: i didn't borrow your money

evenworstxxx: hahahaahahha

riezt_world: how could u forget all that loan! 0__o

riezt_world: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

evenworstxxx: what loan

riezt_world: fuggggggggggggggg

riezt_world: "mate, may i borrow your money... just 10.000 Rupiahs... bla bla bla..."

evenworstxxx: i already paid it.

evenworstxxx: hahahaahahah

riezt_world: "mate, i really need money to rent a studio...."

evenworstxxx: hahahaahahahahahahahahaahahahah

evenworstxxx: i paid it already, satannnnnnnnnnnn!

evenworstxxx: with my body. =P

riezt_world: WTF!

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaha

riezt_world: "mate, pleaseeeeee.... now i just need 20.000 Rupiahs.... "

riezt_world: "duhh mate... may i borrow ...bla bla bla... this time..."

evenworstxxx: hahaha dont u ever tell that stroy in front of her

riezt_world: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

evenworstxxx: no gawe damned i never said that hahahahahahaha

riezt_world: u said that silly!

evenworstxxx: no no no nononononoo

riezt_world: tsk! how come you betray me this way! LOOOL

evenworstxxx: ahahhhahaa

riezt_world: *pout*

riezt_world: listen. all you have to is buy me tickets and all accommodation. ok? =D

evenworstxxx: i already paid it with the most lovely classic guitar in the planet!

riezt_world: LMAO! fugg! you gave it to me for free - GRATIS!

evenworstxxx: hehehehehe

evenworstxxx: hahaha

riezt_world: remember it! G.R.A.T.I.S.

evenworstxxx: nothing is free mate

riezt_world: WTH!

evenworstxxx: hahahahaahahahaha

riezt_world: that toyo-yoyo-something guitar, remember?

riezt_world: gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

evenworstxxx: just like they said: money has brothers.

riezt_world: you're bloody mafia!!

evenworstxxx: hahahaahaha

evenworstxxx: ok ok ok huffff

evenworstxxx: enough

riezt_world: LOOOOL

evenworstxxx: hahahaaha

riezt_world: hahahaha

riezt_world: take it! i didn't ask you to tell me whether she's rich or something. LMAO!

riezt_world: i don't have money now. i'm not that rich. so just gimme the tickects and else. LOL!

evenworstxxx: haaaaaahahahahaha

evenworstxxx: hahahaha

riezt_world: i'm fuckin serious

riezt_world: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

evenworstxxx: oke oke gawd damned

evenworstxxx: here is what u gonna get: 1. ONE ticket shuttle... cheap economic class train



riezt_world: =__________________=



evenworstxxx: 2. ONE cheap room in a cheap hotel



riezt_world: =__________________________=



riezt_world: is that the way you love me?



evenworstxxx: hahahahahahaahaaaaaa

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahaahahaaa

evenworstxxx: ok ok st. august!!

evenworstxxx: stop sulking! hahahaha

riezt_world: *giggles*



evenworstxxx:ok, now, seriously...

riezt_world: you're soooo mean to me... =__=

evenworstxxx: LOL. i just teased you. =)

evenworstxxx: you are the best

evenworstxxx: im gonna give you the best =)

riezt_world: awwwwwwwwwwww

riezt_world: thank you *cuddle* =)

evenworstxxx: just don't forget to bring your swimsuit.

riezt_world: haaa??

riezt_world: 0__o

evenworstxxx: you will stay in a hotel with pool

riezt_world: uh? are you gonna set up the party in the pool? 0__o

evenworstxxx: i talked about the hotel you're staying, moron! LOL!

riezt_world: LMAO. =P

riezt_world: damn you idiot, i won't think about swimming on that day.

riezt_world: i must be so sad...

riezt_world: .......

evenworstxxx: hush hush hush

riezt_world: and i'm gonna be alone in your town. i know nowhere in Cirebon.

evenworstxxx: don't worry

evenworstxxx: you can have me for one night. hahahaha. just kidding =P

riezt_world: LOL! can you ummm... send someone hot there

evenworstxxx: ahhhhaaaahahahaha

riezt_world: hahahhahahha

riezt_world: just kittin. =P

evenworstxxx: hahahaahah



evenworstxxx: yo girl. Erwin is hot enough

evenworstxxx: Basuki too

riezt_world: fug

riezt_world: how come you thrust erwin to me. LMAO

evenworstxxx: they are the best motherfucker in the planet. hahahaha.

riezt_world: LOL!

riezt_world: i'm serious. i just need someone who can accompany me in your town.

riezt_world: erwin or someone i've known already... so i won't feel awkward there.

evenworstxxx: umm, there will be Erwin

evenworstxxx: Basuki

evenworstxxx: Asar

evenworstxxx: Hayyah

evenworstxxx: but you better accompanied by Erwin.

riezt_world: really?

evenworstxxx: he can accompany you to the club or somewhere.

riezt_world: WTF

riezt_world: i don't like clubbing!

riezt_world: >__<

riezt_world: i'm still your st. august!

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahahahahaha

evenworstxxx: go to the club and drink a lot! hahaha!

riezt_world: dohh

evenworstxxx: then you will fly...

evenworstxxx: check in to the room with erwin...

riezt_world: ewwwwwwwwwwwww, no way! >__<

evenworstxxx: hahahahahahaha

evenworstxxx: just kidding. =)

evenworstxxx: why so serious? hehehe

riezt_world: do you think erwin can take care of me?

riezt_world: just like you did?

evenworstxxx: yup. =)

evenworstxxx: he's a good boy.

riezt_world: tell him about my principle ok... st. august, holy maria or whatever you usually called me.

evenworstxxx: i will, my mateeeeeeeee... =)

evenworstxxx: hehehe

riezt_world: gawd

riezt_world: *deep breathing*

evenworstxxx: *rubs riris' brow*

evenworstxxx: you grew up well, mate... =)

riezt_world: can we meet each other before your wedding? been a long time... =(

evenworstxxx: we can.

evenworstxxx: we even haven't visited Bali together just like our promise, remember?

riezt_world: =(

riezt_world: i'll loose my bodyguard soon... :(

evenworstxxx: =)

evenworstxxx: i'm not going anywhere

riezt_world: who will kick those sketchy guys' butt if they tease me? =(

evenworstxxx: ..... =P

evenworstxxx: *HUG*

riezt_world: are u happy, De? =)

evenworstxxx: yeah kinda...

riezt_world: :) good

riezt_world: just promise me you're gonna be happy =)

evenworstxxx: yeah maybe

riezt_world: stop being that sort of person  X(

evenworstxxx: at least i'm gonna make so many people happy

evenworstxxx: her, them.

riezt_world: i was aking about you.

riezt_world: not them

evenworstxxx: =)

evenworstxxx: i learn something from this all

evenworstxxx: that happiness can be made by making someone else's happy.

riezt_world: indeed

riezt_world: better late than never realize that =)

evenworstxxx: =)

riezt_world: dammit. i remember the day when i tried to apply new job in Cirebon

evenworstxxx: hehehehe

riezt_world: just because i wanted to stay near to you. LOL.

evenworstxxx: yup yup

evenworstxxx: mateeeeeeeee

riezt_world: hum?

evenworstxxx: we need lots of nurses here in cirebon.

evenworstxxx: move here!

riezt_world: lol. every town needs nurses, silly. =P

riezt_world: and i should choose lecturer now.

evenworstxxx: oh, i forgot that. =(

riezt_world: it's ok

evenworstxxx: i only remember your bra cup. XXX.

evenworstxxx: hihihhihhihihihi

riezt_world: you're getting older and got alzheimer LMAO

riezt_world: that XXX is sexayyyy ya know =P

evenworstxxx: heheheehee

evenworstxxx: you are, you areeeee! ;)

evenworstxxx: hun, i GTG for a while

riezt_world: hum.. ok

evenworstxxx: mom need a ride.

riezt_world: text me if there's something new, ok.

riezt_world: i deactivated my FB.

evenworstxxx: ok matey

evenworstxxx: *rubs riris's head*

riezt_world: =)

riezt_world: love ya mate

evenworstxxx: =)

evenworstxxx: me too.

evenworstxxx: I LOVE YOU

riezt_world: thank you =)

evenworstxxx: see u soon! =)

i should have known.
i shouldn't trust anyone. no one.

i'm too naive. idiot.
...pathetic...

no one really cares about me.
because no one really respects me.

now i know how it feels... being betrayed by someone i trusted.
lord, i never knew it would be so painful...
and full of tears...

........
rain, will you hug me tonight?
i feel so lonely here...


lying awake in an ocean of teardrops... i float away...

am i ok?

no.

insomnia is killing me. so is he.